The sudden sense of "moral ambiguity" has been cast upon me. It's a struggle.

Yes, I'm thinking of this, yes I am
to hold the thought so close,
yet in the need to get rid of

Yes, I'm thinking of that, Yes I am
in the event of letting out the steam,
to forget..

Where can I go from today?

I have been listening to Lyudmila Zykina. I liker her style. Its rather nice. She’s one of the most authentic and best performers of traditional music.

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its interesting how the violin doesnt play a major role in the orchestra. Ive also been listening to Russian fairy tales - these require a separate blog..

Ever close your eyes

ever stop and listen

ever feel alive

and you've nothing missing

you don't need a reason

let the day go on and on


Only take the time

from the helter skelter

every day you find

everything's in kilter

you don't need a reason

let the day go on and on

In the lazy water meadow I lay me down. All around me golden sun flakes settle on the ground. Basking in the sunshine of a bygone afternoon Bringing sounds of yesterday into this city room.

Today was just another day. of course tgif.
ive been listening to Sigur Rós and some stevie ray vaughan.

i was thinking, why dont I have a language just for music; Create one perhaps. But what will the structure be? I wonder. its something i def want to think of doing...
"tarachi" - one of my original compositions way back in the 90's. which was more like gibberish then - I guess I did start of somewhere in the music-language area. I should think of this further..

Growing up "sucks"